I apologise for not uploading anything recently, I've had a lot of stuff to do plus there's a couple of things I need to finish off in order to put them up. I'm still doing the captions though so depending on the picture and content I'll put those up from time to time. I still haven't found gainful employment yet despite getting a few interviews and its really worrying me now.
On a similar theme, I sometimes wonder if I could have gone down a different path. I've just been going through all my messages and there are so many talented artists out there and some have even been able to use that talent to actually make money. I initially trained as a graphic designer but I was unable to find a position once I left college which is coming up for ten years now. Ten years and I don't feel like I have anything to show for it, it's like I've done nothing with my life. I took a dead end job to make money and it looks like I'm scrabbling round for another one now just for something different. Sometimes I wonder whether I should have made more of a push to do something with my art but i just lack confidence. Other artists have proper websites and get regular work but I just feel like I couldn't get anything like that off the ground. I don't think I could be self employed anyway, I just lack the business sense and prefer to be employed by someone and get a pay packet at the end of the week/month/whatever. Maybe I'm just too lazy to give it a go or scared of things failing. In the end though I think it comes down to confidence, I've started work on a website a couple of times but never seen the point in giving it a go. I've never asked for commissions on here because basically I don't think that anyone would want a drawing or anything from me. I really don't know what I could provide for someone else. I'm not sure whether I could have been a graphic designer anyway, I've been told that I would much rather suit being an illustrator. There are some things I wanted to do though, I wanted to design adverts, movies posters, book and DVD covers. Perhaps even write and illustrate a childrens book someday. That's what I left college wanting to do and whether or not anything will happen or if I even have the get up and go to make it happen I don't know. Still, I always wanted to do a comic strip and I've produced 81 editions of The Art Room so far and it's been going nearly two years.
Anyway, apologies for what has been a dreary and self-indulgent read but wanted to note down a few thoughts.